Few Things That Money Can't Buy

A very good evening, literally. So it was, as I finally decided to venture out in the sun after two days of online burial, living on virtual cadaverous existence and real nonexistence. I'd been lying like a sloth, locked inside one of the dingy rooms in our dingy hostel in a dingy weather, making the most of the precious moments of inactivity and unemployment and not a moment was wasted in my adventure of making myself feel miserable about the prospect of greener pastures across the globe, hated myself at the same time, but acquiesced to the temptation at every given opportunity. I supposedly 'socialized', with people, creepish like myself, whom I didn't know, never met and had every reason to believe might not be real, or at least not what they claimed to be, as I shunned the societies I belong to for those that I think I want to belong to. Realization does not come cheap, it has it's price, and what better way to learn that I was wrong, than by myself. We are seldom bound by the confinements of pride and ego when we are alone, unobserved.

Finally the realization dawned upon me, that a bird in hand was worth two in the bush, switched off this shining window to virtual existence, reluctantly, opened the door, and stepped out, and my head whirled like a whirlpool. The air, fresh after persistent showers and the sun peeping through the silhouettes of the gray clouds welcomed me, as I came back to life. To realize the worth of something, try abstaining from it for a while, however commonplace it may be, this was the second lesson I garnered. Thank you. I had to help myself with whatever moist, stale food I was left with, I had forgone this vital necessity of survival too, to my utter disbelief. I tried in vain to look as fresh and cheerful as possible, the disease just won't let go of me. Lesson number 3: Diseases that pale the soul are much more difficult to fight than those that grieve the body or the mind, there are simply no remedies or advice available. Mind, body and soul, the three pillars of existence have to be intact for harmony. Thanks again.

I strolled gently, pausing momentarily at the locked doors, in the aisle that teemed with life and mirth, resisting the habit of knocking and kicking the doors intuitively. It made me sad, I never told them how important and integral they were to me, though I felt it all along. I thought they'd understand, I hope they did. Hats off people! Lesson Number 4 : Express yourself when you feel like, for you may not be able to later. Gracias.

I grabbed the key to the bike, the dear Royal Enfield, which had been soaking the rain for two days, quite skeptical that it'd start, but it totally worth the try.. anything for the 'bult'. I laboured hard of half an hour, kicking frantically without relent as sweat poured on my brows. I could almost smell my own muffy body odor but still reluctant to relinquish. The 'bult' has always been to hard to get on, precisely the reason that I love it, but she refused to budge. I had to give up, lest I'd faint right there. I parked it in the shed, and decided finally to walk, defeated by a machine. I strolled on the empty road, washed clean by the rain, toads croaking on both sides in the dense undergrowth, as I passed beneath the canopy of leaves above. A white flower, I'm not sure what species, fell right in front of me, as if from heaven. I picked it up, lifted it up to my nose, and inhaled the aroma. It was delicious. I found it hard to let go, so I decided to carry it with me, purifying my soul with it's elixir. I emerged now on a comparatively busier street, still enjoying the flower, held gently in my left hand. People occasionally stared at me, they must think I'm insane. Poor people. They're innocent enough not to realize how far they are from themselves, and close I am, at least at the moment. They've spent fortunes decorating their bodies with expensive clothes adorned by flowery designs, wasted these precious natural offerings in front of holy idols, used them often to impress their lovers, decorated their home even with artificial ones, but the thought of pausing to amuse oneself by a real one is so alien to them. Poor, ignorant, ordinary people. Someone please liberate them, I think, as I smile to myself once in a while. Back to lesson number two. My acknowledgments.

I bought myself a pack of cigarettes, can't figure out why I do so again and again.. this vice needs serious attention. Anyways, the habit humbled me yet again, as I lit one, and moved ahead to pause by the coconut seller, to get myself a tender coconut. The few customers stared momentarily at me, they must think of me as an imbecile, a white flower in one hand, a lit fag in
the other, and trying to buy health. A young girl , probably 20, decent looking, couldn't resist her amusement, and finally asked, " Excuse me sir, lekin yeh bhi aur wo bhi? Ek saath kaise piyenge? " Normally, it should've found me unexpected, but I half expected it, though it's not normal in a country with as skewed sex ratio as India. I'm calm, surprisingly. I smiled, a small one, and managed to say, "Balance zaroori hai". She laughs. I'm amazed how one man oblivious of all pretense and conventions can make people stop and think. They should be grateful to me. People don't think, generally. They just follow. Lesson number 5: Do as you feel like. You might feel the world might reject or ridicule you, but it pays. Stored.

As I walked away, the smoke made my head dizzy after a while, and my steps began to get erratic. I'd been sleep deprived for a long time. I threw it away, and fetched the pack from my pocket, and looked hard at it. I just made someone richer, and myself miserable for this thing. I clenched it hard, and fought an internecine battle, finally, flung it in the bush. I saved a few lives. I looked around, and found myself beneath the same shed of leaves. Enriched by the beauty of one flower, I decided to pick some more. I ventured in the tall grass, braving snakes and crabs, and picked a few. A passer by comments, "Dada bach ke , jungle mein mat jaana". I laugh. Thanks for the advice, as if I care. I took pride at the bunch, glistening on my palm, and felt the softness against my face. Marvelous creation, these little things. Wonder why do they have such a short life span. Even God didn't understand the worth of the treasures he(she/it) created, as useless two legged parasites plague this planet. Next lesson: Don't ever underestimate the power of nature. She got enough to sustain all, in a much better way than the artificiality that we so painfully created.

Finally, back in the room, which seemed lively all at once, I washed the small bouquet and placed it on my table, drawing fresh, divine inspiration. Next lesson: Wither if you will, but spread the fragrance as long as you can. May be, it can make someone long lost come home. I felt the evening impossible to let go, let me emboss it in words, something I haven't for almost a year. One evening taught me more that what four years of college education couldn't.
Thanks again.

I guess there are things money can't buy, not even Mastercard.